Twenty 4 - Hours!

When all this is over,  Sooner or later, we will be away forever.  No matter what I do, I seem to have lost myself, When you are gone, I will find who I was  When all this is over,  I will hold myself closer and not let you hurt me again. For you are my worst nightmare, Someone who has the deepest fears yet acts superior. When all this is over,  I will be happy about my decision.  When all this is over,  I hope you find yourself. 

This is how the world is going to end. We 6th senser's sitting home and worrying about the share market, the industry and the families and friends we live away from.  It's taken a million years for humans (not the industrialists) to understand how much of nature we have lost, how much traffic we had to go through, not to mention the pollution which we were creating and solutioning with masks.  We always think, if we had a chance, we would have done it all right but who are you kidding, we would have ended up here because it's destiny. Even though we try to figure out if China did or we did this to ourselves, it's here. This is it.  Let's say for a moment that all the brilliant minds in the world combined with the industrialists do find out a solution to this pandemic, is it all done? Noooo, we will want more of time and money than we have now and our minds will not forget this and keep reminding us that something big might as well happen.  We will try to create ...

I try to forget, the many memories, the bad and the good ones It feels so vague sometimes, I remember only a speck of it. I spend most times thinking about how we should not have broken, I try to make my pause the moment I start to think about you. To a long lost louve, to the unforgettable days of nothing more than talks, The sweetest gestures, your smile and your kind heart I regret each day, thinking probably my life would have been better. Alas, the grass is always greener on the other side. When I think of you, during those troubled times, I wish each day that I meet you and probably be all wrong about the green side. I try to gather myself and promise that I will not try to think Of the life that I would have had if I was with you just once more.

I always look at you, in the mirror and smile, I look at you every day, thinking “life is good” Thinking I have the perfect life and I should feel happie for what I have. For the others, this may only be a dream. One day, I stop – I am not smiling at you anymore. Life seems to have paused I stare into your eyes, Why isn’t life so good anymore, is it not good anymore? I stare into the deepest thoughts and try to find – you. Your smile fades with the slightest voice. I start to think, what have I done – what am I even looking for, You want to move on, think about starting anew. Is it not too late – are you not old enough to remain happy with what you have? Your eyes seems to water to the deepest oceans I have seen. I stare at your eyes vaguely staying up with reality. You say that you are not happy anymore – with me. I blame myself saying what I missed seeing beyond that smile I struggle to make it right for you but this battle was long lost. I...

When you know the life is cruel at least in your mind, you shuffle through your books, only to find the one photo that makes you want to go back in time. If there were a time machine, you would go back at least a trillion times so you can enjoy every second more. Someday, when you are happy, you still shuffle through your books and still find that one photo which was the happiest. We all have that one photo and that one day when we want to go back in time and feel better for the happy times we have had, the friends we shared, the moments we want to relive. You would, have a happy moment again, someday, you will pick that photo up when you have a cruel, sad or even a happy day and feel better about your life so you can create more memories! Cheers! Written by, Srividhya Lalitha

When I was looking at the kids in my apartment, I thought to myself – how simple life is. Nothing to worry, the only thing we really worried was for the next toy that our parents would buy. All I ever wanted when I grew up, is to be just like those aunties in 30’s who didn’t have to worry about exams and they can buy whatever they want. I am 30 today, I can only think of the saying “the grass is always greener on the other side”. No matter where I am, the other side always seems pleasant. I am still juggling between lots of troubles within the small pleasures of life, still, it is not enough. I want to stay in my bed all day, think about nothing, make my own coffee, and sit by the window just like in movies because they always look good in movies. I am married by the way, so, when I see these movies where the married couple talk and laugh – I cannot relate my life being that green! I do not know if it ever will happen but that’s always something I look forward to though. ...

The first day of every year, my dear! You think of something new, Your life style, the travel plans, to a new you. When everyone around already knows what to do! The fifth day of every year, my dear! You do not feel the need to change, Life was a lot easier without these changes, You end up thinking about the past year. The tenth day of every year, my dear! Life is good without the need to be the "new you" Your ideas conflict between what was and what is, Your think more about going back. Once again, the first day of every year comes by, my dear! But do not think of the year that went by, You are the future of yourself. You do not need the first day of each year to find you. You will forever be better than what you were... Believe! Start now!

When I was young, I had 3 friends with whom I roamed around in the school When I was home, I played with my sisters and neighbours kids. When I was doing nothing, my mom was present to shoo me to go “do something” When I did something, my dad laughed at me being very “mechanic” When I was writing exams, I couldn’t remember the answers (even otherwise) When the results were to come, I cried the nights dreaming I would “fail” Now that I am old (enough), I have 450 friends on Facebook and 25 following me on Instagram. Now that I can share what I do and feel, I get 15 likes on an average Now that I am home, it doesn’t feel like. Now when I am doing something, I feel I don’t have to. Now when I am doing nothing, I have my phone flipping with pages Now that I have someone, I feel alone Now that I am alone, I still feel alone.  

Some cry today, waging wars, losing their minds, Some waited for this day of chaos and confusions, Some think of all the lost relationships, Some think of a better world, a place to live in. Some talk about saving tigers and whales, Some say the Arctic is growing ice, Some made life's choices today, Some stare at the bare wall, hoping not to think. Some stay at office twenty-three hours, Some talk to the mobile phones, Some stay up at night worried about tomorrow, Some say, life's a movie and we are all audiences. I say "Who is in it?!" Written by, Srividhya Lalitha

When I was born, I ruled this world. My mother and father listened to everything I said and bought me everything I wanted because they either loved me so much or I broke their ears. Time passed by, I had everything I wanted and still nothing I wanted. Every time I looked into my room there was one more of the things my friends had that I didn’t. I grew up looking more at others than looking at my own. The more I added, the happier I thought it was going to get me. I now sit in the middle of my room, looking around all things that my parents bought me. I am not sure if I should remember the irritation that I caused when they bought it for me or to remember of my times to keep up with my friends or foes. Where are my parents now? When I want them to buy me happiness in their laughs? In the super tasty food that my mum made for me which I threw away in anger? Where are the friends that I was trying to keep up with? Where am I right now?

I loved you like I should, I loved you like I would. When I see only tears in my eyes The reason nothing more than just "you" Would I love you the way I should? Should I love you the way I would? You are my better half, not my bitter Together we are supposed to be happy You still think of me as a stranger in your life I am feeling "done" of the things you think are "undone". When you are not the one I love anymore, When you have become the reason for the pain, Would I love you the way I should? Should I love you the way I would?

There is something about your smile When your eyes tinkle with curiosity There is something about your hands When you move them through the air There is something about your thoughts When i try very hard to read them There is something about your color When they brush on my hands There is something about your strength When you make so many friends There is something about your smell When i try to catch my breath There is always something about you When i am tired from a long day There is something about your roots When i am trying to stand in mine There is something about you!

I have been married 12 years and my life looks like a dark patch of cloud. I am happy, my husband keeps me well but I have this constant feeling that I do not belong either with my mum or my husband. I feel void. Twelve years ago, the mornings were blissful. I waited to start my day with my new family. I finally had what i wanted all these years. A husband and my life finally (i thought) had begun. Yes, we were happy. I was at home, a home maker and my husband worked with one of the Top IT Companies. We have had good days and we have had those I wouldn’t want to talk about. Life gives you two sides of anything, right? So as days went buy, i was doing nothing but cooking and talking to people who come home and my husband but nothing more. I was asked not to go out. I was asked not to talk to strangers. Ours was a love marriage. I loved this man who once loved me for my "outgoing" personality. Now, I am in between the four walls, with whom i try to talk. I didn’t ...

This is what we dream. We all live our lives. We talk about allowing our children live their life. We say “live and let live” is our motto. Coming to reality, the laws are a little bit twisted…we listen to others gossip…We are curious to know what’s happening in our neighbor’s house. We want to know what someone else feels about the way we talk or dress… Well, can you stop yourself? We all are under the pressure... the constant pressure to impress... to not let yourself be misjudged. Why? It takes a little bit longer to realize there is nothing interesting in the neighbor’s doors anymore… takes a little longer to understand someone else could be doing the same about you... When would you really stop? When you realize you are already in the swamp? When you think there is nothing more left than ‘inner peace’? It’s the undeniable truth that we live our lives for others, not your mother but for the neighbor’s... for the people among whom you do not belong... W...

To many happy memories that I have made during the past years. Some memories, I have tried to forget to get along with the more interesting part of my life (I think :P). To the people who have brought happyness to me and to those who tried.  I believe in spreading true happyness, it is the only humanness that man cannot buy but hence, it’s worth is above the world. For money, I make and give, it is just a vicious circle of my life. I constantly push myself to write some good memories into my journal all the time but end up in tears of sorrow.  I shall constantly work on my skill to try and keep up with happiness and let go of my agonizing brains of emotions :) I am thrilled to know what the years are to bring. Like always, I try to stay modest and casual about it :P Let the show begin for the greatest and the weakest story in my head about you, me and them  which will be digital-lized  in many verses and paragraphs. Today, I res...

I have thought through my heart for the love I have always had for you. I have always loved you. I will not deny that we both have remained committed through the years that have gone behind us. Now, I stop to see where I am, I see you far away in the ocean so deep. I cannot see your face anymore; I cannot feel the love we shared no more. I try to come forward, take a leap; the sea seems to grow deeper.  I tried to cry to you, shout out to you that I cannot see you anymore. You tried to shoo me away with your anger that makes the ocean dark as black. I lose sight of you, my life. I have gained a lot and my wait now will mean nothing but suicide in the dark. I wish to live though; I wish to see my life a little happier and better, and not to cry for you.  When I told you I cannot feel you anymore, I didn’t need the materials to show that you were there. I wanted you. I cannot feel you anymore, my love. I have waited all the time for you to understand that...

Sometimes, I wonder why my life is so blue,  when I am alone, I think of nothing more than you. When I look at the dark, a clear sky  I try to pave the way through the grey. When did I stop seeing you? Even when I day dream,  The more I stand alone,  the more I see of you. I struggle to get my thoughts to words,  I am messed up, that all I can say. I forgot that you exited in my life,  I don’t remember when it all started.  Is it on the day I stopped expecting? the night when I stop crying anymore? The mornings when I spared no time? I know you are long gone.  I am trying to get to you though I try at every second of my life now. I don’t know if I should look for reasons, all the reasons that I lost you.  I will keep trying until the day I exist the reason why you left me,  The day I start believing that I lost belief,  in many things called "life"

How long will you wait my darling? To go across the line of louve To share the thoughts we once thought were ours How long will you wait my darling? For the clock to tic the right time For the sun to set, so we stay together How long will you wait my darling? To show me your love,  To care nothing more but us How long will you wait my darling? For the youngness to last For the life we have to live How long will you wait my darling? To be together without reasons  To be there for a reason How long to wait my darling? For the day to come when I rethink If it has to be you that I wait for

First serious try! :D Inspiration: Tamil magazine

C'mon wake up! Its time to get up! forget all your dreams; Wake up to where you are; before you realize, it is all a big mistake! Don't expect anything in reality to be what you dreamt of, coz you ain't the chess master here. You can always have what you want but only if you should rather,must! Nothing is planned, don't come to that conclusion. It's a big show and you ain't gonna be some grumpy audience. You should wake up to live what is in for you! Its called Life ! Live it !  P.S. This was a poem i wrote @ my previous office, retrieved :) Thanks to Somani! :D