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When you are here no more


I have thought through my heart for the love I have always had for you. I have always loved you. I will not deny that we both have remained committed through the years that have gone behind us. Now, I stop to see where I am, I see you far away in the ocean so deep. I cannot see your face anymore; I cannot feel the love we shared no more. I try to come forward, take a leap; the sea seems to grow deeper. 

I tried to cry to you, shout out to you that I cannot see you anymore. You tried to shoo me away with your anger that makes the ocean dark as black. I lose sight of you, my life. I have gained a lot and my wait now will mean nothing but suicide in the dark. I wish to live though; I wish to see my life a little happier and better, and not to cry for you. 

When I told you I cannot feel you anymore, I didn’t need the materials to show that you were there. I wanted you. I cannot feel you anymore, my love. I have waited all the time for you to understand that I am waiting in the shore and one day you will return to me. I cannot see you no more. 

I am walking away from the shore. I do not want to wait for you anymore as I have lost sight of you, my darling, for you are only a pebble in the ocean that sinks deeper to the dark and failing to see me ashore. 

I leave my scarf at the shore hoping in the tiny bit of your heart that you will come back to me where I will see your eyes sparkle with love.

Good luck with the swim, for many years to come, I wish you more luck.

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