Hold me

Sometimes, I wonder why my life is so blue, 

when I am alone, I think of nothing more than you.

When I look at the dark, a clear sky 

I try to pave the way through the grey.

When did I stop seeing you?

Even when I day dream, 

The more I stand alone, 

the more I see of you.

I struggle to get my thoughts to words, 

I am messed up, that all I can say.

I forgot that you exited in my life, 

I don’t remember when it all started. 

Is it on the day I stopped expecting?

the night when I stop crying anymore?

The mornings when I spared no time?

I know you are long gone. 

I am trying to get to you though

I try at every second of my life now.

I don’t know if I should look for reasons,

all the reasons that I lost you. 

I will keep trying until the day I exist

the reason why you left me, 

The day I start believing that I lost belief, 

in many things called "life"