Twenty 4 - Hours!

I try to forget, the many memories, the bad and the good ones It feels so vague sometimes, I remember only a speck of it. I spend most times thinking about how we should not have broken, I try to make my pause the moment I start to think about you. To a long lost louve, to the unforgettable days of nothing more than talks, The sweetest gestures, your smile and your kind heart I regret each day, thinking probably my life would have been better. Alas, the grass is always greener on the other side. When I think of you, during those troubled times, I wish each day that I meet you and probably be all wrong about the green side. I try to gather myself and promise that I will not try to think Of the life that I would have had if I was with you just once more.

I always look at you, in the mirror and smile, I look at you every day, thinking “life is good” Thinking I have the perfect life and I should feel happie for what I have. For the others, this may only be a dream. One day, I stop – I am not smiling at you anymore. Life seems to have paused I stare into your eyes, Why isn’t life so good anymore, is it not good anymore? I stare into the deepest thoughts and try to find – you. Your smile fades with the slightest voice. I start to think, what have I done – what am I even looking for, You want to move on, think about starting anew. Is it not too late – are you not old enough to remain happy with what you have? Your eyes seems to water to the deepest oceans I have seen. I stare at your eyes vaguely staying up with reality. You say that you are not happy anymore – with me. I blame myself saying what I missed seeing beyond that smile I struggle to make it right for you but this battle was long lost. I

When you know the life is cruel at least in your mind, you shuffle through your books, only to find the one photo that makes you want to go back in time. If there were a time machine, you would go back at least a trillion times so you can enjoy every second more. Someday, when you are happy, you still shuffle through your books and still find that one photo which was the happiest. We all have that one photo and that one day when we want to go back in time and feel better for the happy times we have had, the friends we shared, the moments we want to relive. You would, have a happy moment again, someday, you will pick that photo up when you have a cruel, sad or even a happy day and feel better about your life so you can create more memories! Cheers! Written by, Srividhya Lalitha

When I was looking at the kids in my apartment, I thought to myself – how simple life is. Nothing to worry, the only thing we really worried was for the next toy that our parents would buy. All I ever wanted when I grew up, is to be just like those aunties in 30’s who didn’t have to worry about exams and they can buy whatever they want. I am 30 today, I can only think of the saying “the grass is always greener on the other side”. No matter where I am, the other side always seems pleasant. I am still juggling between lots of troubles within the small pleasures of life, still, it is not enough. I want to stay in my bed all day, think about nothing, make my own coffee, and sit by the window just like in movies because they always look good in movies. I am married by the way, so, when I see these movies where the married couple talk and laugh – I cannot relate my life being that green! I do not know if it ever will happen but that’s always something I look forward to though.