Twenty 4 - Hours!

Tonight, while I am not writing this… I want my life to feel better. I have been doing all I can, I have hurt someone every day. There is nothing I can do about it but to write. I want to feel good about what has happened, That I didn’t have to hurt anymore; there is nothing I can do. Again, it’s back to the conflict between the heart and the mind. Mind says: Don’t; Heart says: Why not? Sometimes, these confusions just meddle it all. When I thought I have my life planned and long, This happens! Back to where I was when I was twenty. I don’t know why my head can’t just shut up! This is a note to say I am sorry*…wherever conditions apply No comments on this, life is good now because I quit thinking!! It’s your life, live it up, and don’t screw it! Nothing can really undo to what it was!

Is it fair that ripples disturb the calmness of the lake? Or is it fair to stop the ripples to reach the surface? How can you realize if you are happy? Thinking is the answer, and it is not so good. When you think, it only hurts every time you try to make better. Nothing is impossible only if your heart thinks, everything is, when your mind does. With one more year in the trash, Let’s put a medal on the next one. Happie New Year :)

Green to brown, That’s what I see, Is it because of you or me? Blue to black, Changing lives, What can I do now? Brown to invisibility, Vanishing every second, Has it hit your head yet? Red to nothing, That’s where it is going, And then it will be too late to realize. P.S. You do share a part in creation and destruction. Consider the environment before you start to think of ANYTHING!

Everything queues up, when I close my eyes, Memories splash and make me think. It wasn’t that bad, I have managed pretty well [if my ma is not reading this :)] I don’t see dreams anymore, feels like I am living it. I still miss where I used to be, The places, the people and my family, After a year, letting-go has become easy. People move-on, I remain, thinking, ‘Those were some good times’, I have made good friends and learnt all at the same time. Moment to say to those who have been in my life [no matter how], Thanks! And I am glad you are in my life!!

Long in life, not very long ago, we all had love which we took even if it doesn’t favor us too much. Don’t ask me why, coz I’m right there! :P Sometimes, a simple "hi" can put a million smiles, warn u! There may be no reason sometimes...you still smile about a random thought. Don’t ask me what it means if it does have a reason (except the person)... That’s not what I’m writing about.... Whether you don’t have love, or in the process or never had love, it is an experience that every person experiences in life! Love whether its your family, friends or "the special person", it just feels so nice. One good word from my mother that’s all I need for the rest of my life!! I can recall that incident every other time she doesn’t talk that way! Love is all different things... even when you are broke, rich or never had cash... all the love you have makes it more! I am thinking why I even started writing this, maybe I don’t want anyone to think that love is only for &quo