I could start writing this like a sad story, when you left me and i never felt more lost!
I try to understand all the truth, the lies, the fake reasons. There was nothing you did not do. Fooling around like a gurl with a candy. When i was with you, there was nothing more i asked the lord than asking you to go away. Deep inside, I have always known that you are not the one. Tragedy I call it, even when i knew everything, i didnt ask you why! Now, who is the biggest loser?
The darkest days of my life lasted for three whole years. My young life was gone by looking into your eyes and trying to figure out, if at some point if you ever loved me. Should i have asked myself if i really like you? No i didnt.Until i saw you, saw us from the outside trying to learn what i was missing the whole time. I found that i was not missing you anymore, i miss my life, my friends, my family.Three years shadowed my loves! Someone i should have given attention to and not to your dumb jokes. Why was i even listening?
I sat down to the lord asking for forgiveness for all that I have done. For being a fool, when the solution was right in front me!
The days were so bad that even if we argued, i gave up. You lost me there, you didnt have to wait for the "end" to figure out that i was not with you anymore, that i am not yours anymore.
This didnt mean my interest grew with someone else, only, i didnt want to feel like this ever in my life. I have learnt a hard lesson, this i will not advice anyone on. The three precious years of my gone, with you, i was never happy. Even though we laughed, i really didnt feel anything close to "this is it". Probably i was too young to understand this, probably not. I was too blind. I did what i want. I left you...I left you to better day, to my life. I am happy, with all my heart.
Your lies, your life is unforgivable. There is nothing you can do to change what you are. I now know, you never belonged to my life.
I am glad you left me when i wanted you to.
I always thought "your life is your consequence" which means your decision (right or wrong) is what you live (your life). While I am trying to clear my head over matters that I never planned or wasn't ready to face, I believe in you. When the child crossing the road hit by a truck is still alive, I would have debated that he was probably not hit in the vital organs, blah, and blah, blah. Now, I say it’s his "destiny", he is not meant to die. The purpose of his life is not fulfilled. My friends tried to convince me that life happens because it’s destiny. I argued its always ones' decision that makes life. If I argue now, I would say (now) partly for destiny and decisions. The example, when you pass in exams - you determine to pass or fail. You know that life will not be any better if the high scores reflected on the mark sheets. That's a decision, isn't it? Another one, when a family went to Indore (a place in India) for a picnic by the river, onl...
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